diary of nobody 5

kenapa?

susah sgt nk tidur ni.

dlu senang je.

skang kena cari mood kaw2 punya.

ap problem pown aq sendiri x taw.. yg aq nk, tidur seckupnya.

tp susah benor nk dpat.

haish.

aq pown x taw nk wat cmne.

setiap kali nk tidur, bayangan tu msti dtg.

aq x fhm.

da smpai masa utk aq ke?

tp tu la silap aq, x berani nk kongsi ngan sesape. yela.

kalau kongsi, org akn ingt aq bnyk tgk tv. 

hish. 

susah la. x tenang tidur. 

kekadang dua tiga jam je aq tidur.

susah2..

diary of nobody 4

yesterday her birthday, she call me for 3 time's.

first call my phone was on problem.

second call, i answer it, just that we didn't have much thing to chat.

the third time, my phone battery make a problem, and the problem is my friend borrowed my charger.

argh, it make me stress.

i still feel the same towards her, but, does she?

of course she's not feeling the same.

because she has someone else to love with.

and i just a disease.

what must i do?

anyway, today, my activity only lying in the couch.

on noon cook for my friend and me in the house.

at night go out just to get something to eat for.

and after that watch movie and now updating my blog or should i call, my internet diary.

kinda bored life.

but it's okay.

i'm used to it already.

by the way, my skill of typing day by day getting improvised much better each day. 

faster and faster.

i bet i can type like other american's.

i wish i can get there or best could be, live there.

especially MIAMI.

wow!

beautiful beaches and environment.

just so love it.

but don't know when can reached there. 

but should be, one day somehow.

got to go now.

'till next time fellas.

adios.

diary of nobody 3

there's a call from you?

what must i do?

answer it or leave it?

if you just want to call and get angry of me 'coz i'm writing about you,

no need for.

because i stand on what i say.

but what if you call and you just want to say hi.

want to be someone with me again?

what must i say?

what must i do?

ergh, it's killing me..

diary of a nobody 2

i'm tired disappointed.

i want to be loved.

i hate being a matchmaker.

but why isn't someone who realize it?

do i look invisible.

i want be like you guy's.

someone to text, someone to call.

but until now, i am only a matchmaker for other people. 

i try to get loved, but still can't.

am i suck that bad?

what can i do.

this is all fate. 

can't blame the fate.

this is something that i must figured myself.

till now i can hear muffin, munchy.

its okay.

i can get through it.

i'm a strong guy am i.

played rugby.

been through accident but still can work with broken shoulder.

hehe.

i guess this is it.

time to on my radar.

and look for my soul-mate.

diary of a nobody 1

everyone got their own life to think right?

so am i.

but do we know or do we care about people around us?

no!

we never.

as a nobody, i know it is lot to ask for a sympathy.

but, at least i know that i got that courage to stand on my own feet. on my own will!

i never judge you guy's. 

but why when it is my turn to show about me, you guy's start judging me like i'm a total idiot.

is it wrong to say hi to you, to ask how are you, to know what you doing. is it that bad?

am i the idiot or is it you?

hey, i love you once, and it gonna be forever. because for the past few year's, you the only person i care.

you the one i need.

but then you disappear.

i don't hate you.

i love you.

i need you.

but you never knew it 'coz you keep running away from me.

i want to be with you again. the first time i met you, it was the last time i had with you. but it is very beautiful.

i promise you once, and i will hold on that. 

this is me, nobody.

just want to tell you that i'm nobody since you left me. i need you now.

but do you care?

no.

so this is my voice.

this is only the beginning.

there will be more on my pain and suffer.

i still love you.

bye.