diary of nobody 6

mmg x la kn.. aq rse da mcm ap da ni..terok sgt da ni.. serius terok.. penat aq rse mcm ap je ni.. hahah. ad yg nk ganti aq x?? hm.. nk buat ap ye?? tidur la.. tidur jom!!! zzzzzzz

diary of nobody 5

kenapa?

susah sgt nk tidur ni.

dlu senang je.

skang kena cari mood kaw2 punya.

ap problem pown aq sendiri x taw.. yg aq nk, tidur seckupnya.

tp susah benor nk dpat.

haish.

aq pown x taw nk wat cmne.

setiap kali nk tidur, bayangan tu msti dtg.

aq x fhm.

da smpai masa utk aq ke?

tp tu la silap aq, x berani nk kongsi ngan sesape. yela.

kalau kongsi, org akn ingt aq bnyk tgk tv. 

hish. 

susah la. x tenang tidur. 

kekadang dua tiga jam je aq tidur.

susah2..

diary of nobody 4

yesterday her birthday, she call me for 3 time's.

first call my phone was on problem.

second call, i answer it, just that we didn't have much thing to chat.

the third time, my phone battery make a problem, and the problem is my friend borrowed my charger.

argh, it make me stress.

i still feel the same towards her, but, does she?

of course she's not feeling the same.

because she has someone else to love with.

and i just a disease.

what must i do?

anyway, today, my activity only lying in the couch.

on noon cook for my friend and me in the house.

at night go out just to get something to eat for.

and after that watch movie and now updating my blog or should i call, my internet diary.

kinda bored life.

but it's okay.

i'm used to it already.

by the way, my skill of typing day by day getting improvised much better each day. 

faster and faster.

i bet i can type like other american's.

i wish i can get there or best could be, live there.

especially MIAMI.

wow!

beautiful beaches and environment.

just so love it.

but don't know when can reached there. 

but should be, one day somehow.

got to go now.

'till next time fellas.

adios.

diary of nobody 3

there's a call from you?

what must i do?

answer it or leave it?

if you just want to call and get angry of me 'coz i'm writing about you,

no need for.

because i stand on what i say.

but what if you call and you just want to say hi.

want to be someone with me again?

what must i say?

what must i do?

ergh, it's killing me..

diary of a nobody 2

i'm tired disappointed.

i want to be loved.

i hate being a matchmaker.

but why isn't someone who realize it?

do i look invisible.

i want be like you guy's.

someone to text, someone to call.

but until now, i am only a matchmaker for other people. 

i try to get loved, but still can't.

am i suck that bad?

what can i do.

this is all fate. 

can't blame the fate.

this is something that i must figured myself.

till now i can hear muffin, munchy.

its okay.

i can get through it.

i'm a strong guy am i.

played rugby.

been through accident but still can work with broken shoulder.

hehe.

i guess this is it.

time to on my radar.

and look for my soul-mate.

diary of a nobody 1

everyone got their own life to think right?

so am i.

but do we know or do we care about people around us?

no!

we never.

as a nobody, i know it is lot to ask for a sympathy.

but, at least i know that i got that courage to stand on my own feet. on my own will!

i never judge you guy's. 

but why when it is my turn to show about me, you guy's start judging me like i'm a total idiot.

is it wrong to say hi to you, to ask how are you, to know what you doing. is it that bad?

am i the idiot or is it you?

hey, i love you once, and it gonna be forever. because for the past few year's, you the only person i care.

you the one i need.

but then you disappear.

i don't hate you.

i love you.

i need you.

but you never knew it 'coz you keep running away from me.

i want to be with you again. the first time i met you, it was the last time i had with you. but it is very beautiful.

i promise you once, and i will hold on that. 

this is me, nobody.

just want to tell you that i'm nobody since you left me. i need you now.

but do you care?

no.

so this is my voice.

this is only the beginning.

there will be more on my pain and suffer.

i still love you.

bye.

aznur, have you heard my prayer this lately?? i need you!! where are you??

Why is it everytime I try

It always comes back as a lie

I could believe in the words that you say to me

But lately I think I wont agree

 What makes the world go by

If you cannot crush my life

 What holds you up so high

When you want it all the time

 (C/o)

Coz we will be fine

In matter of time

Subject to my mind

As were crossing the line

 Directions to see

Perfection to be

A pain of a kind

Always crashing on me

Suffercate, time, matter I'll be fine

Today

 And the days they go on and on

As all the time I'm all alone

It never pays me to say that I'm not ok

But you still have time to make fun of me

 What makes the world go by

If u cannot crush my life

 What holds you up so high

When you want it all the time

 (C/o)

 And I don't believe

In time we will see

A pain of a kind

Always crashing on me

Suffercate, time, matter I'll be fine

 Today...

JUMPA POWN!!!

Menunggu sesuatu yang sangat menyebalkan bagiku
Saat ku harus bersabar dan trus bersabar
Menantikan kehadiran dirimu
Entah sampai kapan hati harus

Menunggu sesuatu yang sangat sulit tuk ku jalani
Hidup dalam kesendirian sepi tanpa dirimu
Kadang hidup harus cari pengganti
Saat kau jauh disana

Gelisah sesaat sajak tiada kabarmu kucuriga
Dan tak berhenti dan tak akan sia sia
Dan berikan satu jawaban pasti
Entah sampai kapan aku harus

Bertahan saat kau jauh disana rasa cemburu
Merasuk ke dalam pikiran ku melayang
Kadang ku ada tempat dirimu
Apakah sama yang kau rasakan


Walau raga kita terpisah jauh
Namun hati kita selalu dekat
Maka itu pejamkan mata mu
Dan rasa kan a... a... ku

Katakan cinta kita takkan perah rapuh
Terhapus ruang dan waktu
Percayakan kesetian ini
Pada ketulusan ai... ai... Aishiteru


Saat ku sendiri pikiran melayang terbang
Perasaan gelisan dan
Kenyataan hidup tanpa gairah
Ou... o... 

Banyak segala misi dan ambisimu
Akhiri semuanya cukup sampai disini
Dan buktikan pengorbanan cintamu untukku
Kumohon kau kembali

akhirnya dpat jugak aq cari lirik lagu ni.. lagu ni special sgt sebab ad orang yg aq pernah syg sgt2 letak lagu ni dlam blog dia.. and lagu ni buat aq teringat sgt dekat dia.. aq still syg kn dia.. kenapa aq sakit kn hati dia?? sbb aq nk dia lupa kn aq.. aq x nk jd punca hubungan dia dgn bf dia hancur.. aq x kn biar kn dia menangis sbb aq.. sbb aq syg sgt2 dgn dia.. bagi aq, dia la segalanya.. smpai sekarang perasaan aq kat dia still ad lagi.. nickname kitorang, aq muffin dia, and dia lak munchy aq!! aq syg sgt2 kt munchy aq!!!

memory of a weirdo

korang pernah terfikir x ap rse nye ditindas?

ap rse nye sentiasa di permain kn ?

sentiasa di buli?

mesti x kn? 

sebab kita semua pembuli.

memang kadang2 kita menjadi mangsa kepada si pembuli, tapi pernah x kita rase mcm mne perasaan sebenar di buli? 

aq mengaku, aq pown pernah membuli. tp, aq pown pernah rse di buli.

and perasaan di buli tu sgt aq benci.

pernah x kita terfikir kenapa kita membuli? 

mesti x pernah kn.

sbab kita berdendam dgn orang yg membuli kita.

tapi kita x berani ambik tindakan.

bila kita buat aduan, orang kata kita tipu di sebab kn personaliti si pembuli itu sgt baik.

jalan pengakhiran yg ad, adalah kita menjadi pembuli. kita yg membuli insan yg lain. pernah x terfikir satu hari nnty ap kesan nya kepada anak2 kita? pernah x kita fikir kn risiko akn tindakan  kita itu?

kenapa mesti wujud nya budaya membuli ini?

persoalan yg ibu bapa sendiri tidak dapat menyelesai kn atau pun menidak kn. 

persoalan ini yg sedang berlaku dan mengganggu anak2 kita. 

mari kita fkir kn jawapan nya. kenapa isu ini yg sy kupas?

kerana berlaku sesuatu yg aneh di dlam kehidupan sy baru2 ini..

entry seterus nya akn diterus kn lagi dgn perbincangan ini.

benda baru

kali ni aq dpat ilmu baru. sbb sem ni aq kena duk luar,

1. kemas rumah 
2. bangun awl
3. mandi sekejap je jangan lama2
4. cari kawan yg pandai planning

aq da besar skang. kena la bertanggunjawab ckit. korang percaya x yg aq ni makin dewasa?? mesti x kn..

tp tu la hakikat nya

aq da besar da wey.. so x ley jd hipokrit.. be myself, and for the rest of you, always take a safety precaution steps and mind your own business... hahahha... maniac advice from me. MSS. a.k.a capik sudin.. got to go guys.. next time kay..

why me??

kenapa hati ni still pkir kn dia? kenapa aq still x sedar yg aq just persinggahan tok hati dia? kenapa aq still ad perasaan syg kat dia.. ye mmg aq korbankn sumer perasaan aq tok dia.. kenapa sumer orang yg aq kenal lately ni sumer suka wat aq mcm sampah? ap slah aq kt korang? aq bahagia dgn kau aritu. sgt bahagia. tp mne kebahagian tu skarang? manusia mmg cpat berubah. biar la kita hidup dlam dunia sendiri. jgan jemput orang masuk hati kita lagi. aq ad kawan and family. gf biar kn ke laut. yup. aq mengaku, lately ni aq semakin terubat sebb aq da ad pengganti kau. tp dia still kena usaha tok dpat kn hati aq spenuhnya.. maaf kn apit ateh sbb kecewa kn ateh. apit akn cuba tok berubah demi ateh. bagi apit msa tok lupa kn perkara silam. boley kn syg. apit taw ateh sgt memahami. thx syg. jaga diri awk az, bcoz sy x de tok jaga awk. maaf jika sy buat slah. tp benarkn sy lupa kn awk. and sy nk sgt pulang kn cincin awk balik. boley kn? tolong benarkn sy pulangkn cincin awk. sy x nk kacau hubungan awk and sy x nk sakit kn aty orang yg syg kn sy. ni pengorbanan sy. please.

diri aku, ikut suka aku lah,, sebok kenapa.. hehehe...

Ap lagi yg korang nk ckp psal aq? Aq jahat? Ckp la ap yg korang nk ckp asl kn korang bahagia ngan hidup korang.. aq x nk sebok. Yg aq taw aq syg kn dia, family, and kawan2 aq. Nk tips mcm mner nk happy? Mcm ni, senang je, korang peduli kn ap yg orang ckp. Asl kn korang bahagia. Okay? Aq syg kn family aq. Tapi tu la.. jauh kn. Susah la skit. Skang ni mmg rindu ngan diorang.. lagi2 ferrari aq tu.. hehehe.. padahal saga je.. tapi saga tu la yg aq bwk member and munchy.. law sape nk taw, munchy ni la gf aq kiranya. Tapi tu la.. lepak dlu.. nnty tros kawen je.. x ya kapel2.. hehe.. btol x munchy? Kwn2 aq slalu ad bila aq perlu kn diorang. Kitorang minat berjamming. Diorang panggil aq Eminem Malaysia sebb aq boley nyanyi lagu rap and nyanyi dgn laju.. hoho.. munchy lak skang ni bnda yg paling penting lam hidup aq skang ni. Law x de dia cm sunyi je hidup aq. Tapi tu la.. ad krisis besar lagi yg perlu kitorang setel kn. Bukan ap. Law nk bahagia kena la mcm ni kn.. dun worry la munchy. I won’t leave you. Law you x accept I pown x pe. Asl kn I ley syg you sgt2.. huhu.. ibu ayah, apit mtk maaf law x Berjaya lam uitm ni. Susah la belajar bnda yg kita x suke. Tapi apit akn cuba gak. Jgn la risau. Kawan2, aq x kn lupa kn korang sumer. Yg kat uitm ke, klang ke, sumer kawan2 aq smpai bila2. Aq akn tolong korang law korang susah. And for you munchy, you will always be my favourite girl, and you will always be my girlfriend walaupun you x accept I, tp you la gf i. coz I taw one day nnty you akn accept I gak. And if you dtg klang lagi, jgn la risau, “Ferrari” I ad.. hehe.. ley kita jlan2.. tgk wayang and so on.. love you munchy, I am your muffins! Heheh…family, frenz and munchy is important for me!~~~@

bukan niat aq.

SEDETIK LEBIH DIRI KU HANYA UNTUK MU!

Setiap nafas yang dihembus

Setiap degupan jantung

Aku selalu memikirkanmu

Dalam sedar dibuai angan

Dalam tidur dan khayalan

Aku selalu memikirkanmu

Ternyata ku perlukan cinta dari dirimu sayang

Barulah terasa ku bernyawa

Kasihku…ku amat mencintai kamu

Kerana kau beri erti hidup

Ku kan terus mencinta sedetik lebih selepas selamanya

Di kala penuh ketakutan dengan badai kehidupan

Ku bersyukur adanya kamu

Biarlah kehilangan semua yang dimiliki di dunia

Asal masih adanya kamu...

Aku taw aq x dpat ganti dia. Tapi sekurang-kurang nya aq taw yg aq syg kn kau. Aq x paksa kau tok trime aq. Biar la ap orang nk ckp. Aq x peduli. Aq tetap syg kn kau. Kau x perlu risau pasal aq. Aq taw nk jaga hati and kecewa aq sendiri. Lagipun bukan sumer orang fham aq. Kau ckp aq x fhm kau, tapi kau belom kenal aq lagi. Aq sorang je yg taw. Aq da ckup kenal kau. Kau x perlu risau lagi. Inilah aq.

death.....

mati , mati, mati, mati, mati. hidup penuh dgn kematian. life is a death note.

kenapa sy buat semua ni?

mungkin ap yg aq buat orang akan pandang pelik. tpi ni la aq. aq lebey penting kn orang dari diri aq sendiri. aq harap sgt dia fham perasaan aq. fhm kenapa aq buat semua ni. aq syang kan dia. tapi aq x nk paksa dia dlam menyayangi aq. diri aq mcm medan perang bagi aq. biar aq ambil semua kesedihan yg ad dlam dunia ni and simpan dlam hati aq sendiri. aq janji akn jaga semua orang tanpa beban. sayang, i janji i xkn tinggal kn you. btol x? jadi sy x kn tinggal kn awk. sy nk awk fikir ap yg patot tentang kita. sy syang kan awk aznur. tolong fham perasaan sy. sy x mintak awk terima sy secepat ni. sy nk awk fikir masak2 tentang hubungan yg kita nk bina. okay? nanty sy akn ckp lagi. bye.. MSS.. 3:32 am. 3/2/2011...

bruno mars- marry you.. this song for you munchy!!

It's a beautiful night,
We're looking for something dumb to do.
Hey baby,
I think I wanna marry you.

Is it the look in your eyes,
Or is it this dancing juice
Who cares baby,
I think I wanna marry you.

Well I know this little chapel on the boulevard we can go,
No one will know,

Come on girl.
Who cares if we're trashed got a pocket full of cash we can blow,
Shots of patron,
And it's on girl.

Don't say no, no, no, no-no;
Just say yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah-yeah;
And we'll go, go, go, go-go.
If you're ready, like I'm ready.

Cause it's a beautiful night,
We're looking for something dumb to do.
Hey baby,
I think I wanna marry you.

Is it the look in your eyes,
Or is it this dancing juice
Who cares baby,
I think I wanna marry you.

I'll go get a ring let the choir bells sing like oooh,
So whatcha wanna do?
Let's just run girl.

If we wake up and we wanna break up that's cool.
No, I won't blame you;
It was fun girl.

Don't say no, no, no, no-no;
Just say yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah-yeah;
And we'll go, go, go, go-go.
If you're ready, like I'm ready.

Cause it's a beautiful night,
We're looking for something dumb to do.
Hey baby,
I think I wanna marry you.

Is it the look in your eyes,
Or is it this dancing juice
Who cares baby,
I think I wanna marry you.

Just say I do,
Tell me right now baby,
Tell me right now baby.
just say i do tell me right now baby

Cause it's a beautiful night,
We're looking for something dumb to do.
Hey baby,
I think I wanna marry you.

Is it the look in your eyes,
Or is it this dancing juice
Who cares baby,
I think I wanna marry you.

dlam kelas typing. tgah buat speed test.. membosan kan.. hahaha.. sempat tulis bnda ni..

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garbage in my mind....

First of all, I hate myself for being stupid all the time. I let everyone getting over me and I just follow like a lost puppy. Shit I hate that situation. Actually I got some problem with my life. I hate my studies. I don’t know why I’m still going on with it. I really hate this course! Can someone tell me why? I want to cook. I want to be best chef in the world. But it was only just a dream now. My life, nothing much to say. I love my family, but the problem is me. I don’t know why I preferred to do something that can make me sick. Before this I done so many thing, some people call it stunt like the jack ass does. But the real is, it is not same like what they do. It is something bad. We smoke without the filter. We do so many bongs. Take panadol with coke. Mixing coke with some coffee. And anything else. Hm. I don’t know why we doing all this shit actually. Now I suffer something bad due to what I have done. But none of the people that closed to me know any of these problems. My health is not in a really good condition. I barely to walk for a long period. Last day I have a date with my love, then time we walk for the whole day and I have not sleep yet. My body tired but I do it because my girl needs me at that time. I know that I won’t disappoint her. She took a long journey just to see me. I really appreciate that sayang. So sorry for not telling you this by myself. I just don’t want you to get worried about me. I will tell you someday, maybe after you read my blog. And the last problem is that I can’t stop thinking about what will happen to me and her. I really love her but I don’t know why she still can’t accept me in her life. It’s okay sayang. I’m not pointing at you. But I need you to know that I will always love you. And I will always need you to be in my life. I really need someone. I hope it is you because I really love you. I still remember holding you in my arm. Hug you for the whole day. Hm. I really miss that moment with you. I want to be with you for the whole day in my life. I want to spend the rest of my life just to hold you in my arm. I love you sayang. Just I got so many problem that hardly to share with you because you also facing about lot of problem right? I hope one day I can tell all this to you. Don’t worry about me sayang. But one thing that I really want to know is, do you really love me? I mean just me? Even if you still not accept me yet, but do you really love me? Only me in your life? But why I see someone getting words ‘IMISSYOU’ from you? Why are you calling him ‘DEAR’? I’m so sorry for being jealous. But I need to know either you really love me or someone else? Because I really love you sayang. No one else except you sayang. I need you.

mushi aznur orang yg sy syg sgt

Aku makin susah nk tidur malam.. Aq x taw ap yg aq pikir kn.. Entah la.. Aq sendiri keliru dgn diri aq.. Aq bnyk berfikir skang ni.. Bnyk btol.. Smpai kadang2 tu aq pikir mati lagi tenang.. Tapi law aq mati pown masalh tu x kn selesai.. Aq sgt2 memerlukan seseorang tok aq luah kn sumer prasaan ni.. Tapi sape?? Sape yg sanggup nk dgr msalah aq ni? Aq bosan hidup sorang. Aq perlukan teman. Aq sesat dlam kegelapan yg aq sendiri pilih. Aq rindu kan belaian dari seseorang yg ley teman aq setiap masa aq. Baru2 ni aq jumpe da. Aq sgt syg kn dia, dan dia pown rse yg sama jugak dgn aq. Aq sgt2 perlu kn dia dlam hidup aq. Msalah aq bgaikn selesai sumer bila aq berbual dgn dia. Aaq janji dgn diri aq sendiri aq x kn kecewa kn dia atau sakit kn aty dia. Mmg btol mustahil, tapi aq x kn ptus asa sebab dia sorang je yg fham hati aq. Dia ad bila aq gembira, sedih dan kusut. Dia bagaikn kurniaan TUHAN untuk aq. Aq sedar perangai mcam aq x layak dpat perempuan mcm dia. Aq x kacak mcm orang lain, tapi dia x kesah sumer tu. Dia suka aq sepenuh hati dia. Dia x pernah kolot dlam memikir kn kekurangan diri aq. Aq sgt2 syg kn dia. Percaya la yg aq xkn tinggal kan dia.. Aq sgt memerlukan dia dlam hidup aq.. trima kasih sayang sebab terima diri saya. Saya yakin hati awk akan terbukak jugak untuk sy nnty.. percaya la syang..